feelings are so confusing. mostly im just trying to ignore them but my brain keeps running and thinking and thinking. its almost like trauma fucks you up and changes you as a person. its still hard to get used to that and the fact that its okay not to be ok. kinda been pretending for ages that im ok when i havent been. like damn can a guy catch a break. shits rough out here man

date: 03/03/26 | mood: homesick

man what the fuck even has been happening to me. these past few months have felt so crazy and hectic lmfao. thank you to my friends for always having my back. im just kinda left in a state of confusion trying to piece myself back together and become a normal functioning guy. getting stuff to put a cosplay together and im hype as fuck cus its my first time doing cosplay or costumes. gonna be making some of the stuff myself and its been fun to try to scavenge for shit i already own to be turned into something new

date: 02/23/26 | mood: confused

yknow everythings kind just been ass recently but im choosing to have a positive outlook. not gonna go too in depth but our mental health has been tanking and idk wtf to do about it so im just yoloing through the shit man. maybe its cus my bf just gives me hope. like i didnt think we would get together again but here we fucking are living life and rolling with the punches. everything is daijobu

date: 11/17/25 | mood: content

little warning im just gonna ramble about my feelings so. writing this while listening to electric relaxation by a tribe called quest (fuckin banger btw). we have not been doing good recently, me specifically has been going through it. going through a breakup fucking sucks and even though i havent been fronting ive still been feeling it. i saw some art like 10 minutes ago and it reminded me of him. and i feel guilty??? for missing him??? i dunno. a lot of other people in my brain are kinda set on us never been friends with this guy again. a lot of people are upset (rightly so) and have been going through a rollercoaster (especially those whove dealt with shitty breakups in the past). it fucking sucks dude. we are gonna be starting anxiety meds soon and i hope it helps our shit. paranoia has been so fucking crazy. and like idk how im able to write this. i guess i dont care if he sees this? i dunno. no way im gonna reach out id be exhiled lmao. i dont even know if he knows i have this site. anyways. this feels like the place i can be this most me, ynow? its just my little corner. spitting my shit here was fun before, idk why it has to stop just cus im being mopey. ill be ok. and if im not i know i have people who care about me

date: 03/13/25 | mood: man.

my epic 4 step plan to get biches has worked /silly holy crapola dude its like a motherfucking rom com up in this bitch. i was doing so shitty these past few days but guess what. this guy has gone and bagged himself a moirail. hells yeah. to all those folks unaware of what that is or the miracle of pale feelings for another bro lemme paraphrase what was said in the comic - its like "platonic soulmates" but its still romance. basically like kissing the homies. its fucking AWESOME. i love my moirail almost as much as i like to rap, dont tell her that tho, shell nag me for being a soppy dork

date: 04/28/24 | mood: smitten

yesterday kinda fucking sucked but like whatever i cant let the bad shit get me down. too much good shit outweighing the bad. got some dope ass roasts in on my broskis, and, big w for the ol relationship department. this lucky son of a bitch bagged himself a sweet babe. hed probably be pissed asf at me for calling him that but i dont rlly give a fuck. not gonna ramble here for like 100k words about my sweet gay love cus thats boring as shit. imagine im doing it tho, to rub it into your loser virgin face LMAO

date: 04/25/24 | mood: homosexual

bro today has been so dope. boutta eat some hot dogs and noodles for my dinner, got a new dope ass laptop. cant wait to do so much epic gaming on this bad boy. and art. holy shit dawg. i wanna draw more stupid ass comics, i need sbahj beyond canon or some shit. coming this summer, or whatever, keep your eyes out

date: 04/16/24 | mood: joyous